Molly, my 4 year old, found
it too scary. She stayed downstairs playing Chutes And Ladders on the
computer while my wife and I watched the coverage. Emma, my 8 year old,
shuttled between the computer and the TV. She thought it was cool. And,
really, who could blame her? It was TV. It was unreal. Every morning
she watches shows about flying dragons and talking cats. Now she's watching
planes flying through buildings and buildings collapsing to the ground.
In a purely visual sense, it was cool. Hollywood could not have planned
a better day to film against. The sky, before the dust, smokes and flying
debris, was a brilliant blue. Some of the shots of the plane flying
into the second tower are breathtaking. The sky looks almost digitally
blue. It points up the orange and black of the explosion and the flames.
It looks so perfect it can't be real. Maybe this is why it doesn't seem
real. After all, we've seen the White House destroyed by aliens. And
Hoover Dam, too.
"Why don't they have more firemen putting out the fires?"
She doesn't quite get it. I ask her if she remembers seeing the Hancock
building downtown and to try to imagine a fireman with a hose in front
of it. She ponders this for a moment and then goes back downstairs to
play Chutes and Ladders.
Even though the explosions are cool, she does not like the videos of
the people running in the street. She pulls the blanket over her head
or runs downstairs. I'm not sure she's really making the connection;
not really understanding that those people are running from the cool
explosions.
I wince every time they run the replay and an awed "wooowwwww"
escapes her lips. There's a part of me that wants to explain the magnitude
of this carnage. To link the cool explosions and the number of people
that they killed. I want to debunk this vision of this being just another
TV show. I can't tell how much she's actually processing.
Later in the day, she builds two stacks out of the big Duplo blocks.
"These are those towers," she grins, and then kicks them across
the floor and beats on them.
But does she really understand? Should I put the little Playmobile people
inside them to drive the point home? Should I pull the ketchup out of
the fridge and pretend that it's blood? Should I light a cigarette and
blow smoke over the whole proceedings?
Probably not. She's 8. There's sure to be plenty of time to talk about
man's inhumanity to man. For now, I might as well let her take from
the situation what she wants.
They are just cool explosions.