Hope Triumphant III: Anamchara - Highlander Fanfiction
SUMMARY: After the deaths of their wives, Connor and Duncan must each build a new life and, perhaps, choose a new partner.
AUTHOR: Parda
DATE:  2009
RATED: Some swearing
DISCLAIMER: Cassandra, Methos, Connor, Duncan, Amanda, Rachel Ellenstein, and anyone else you recognize from on-screen are not my original characters, and I didn't come up with the idea of HL.  No money is being made from this story.  Sara, Serena, and all the rest of the characters are mine.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:  This story is part of the Hope Series.  It is set in the HL3 universe, so the events of HL2 and HL4 don't happen here.  "Hope Triumphant III: Anamchara" follows "Hope Triumphant II: Sister."  (For a list of other related stories, go here.)  For more author's notes, go here.


Hope Triumphant III
ANAMCHARA

Warning: Work in Progress
Anything you read may be changed to suit the needs of the story or the whims of the author.

Last updated June 2009:  Methos meets Serena and Connor and Sara spar


CONTENTS
chapters in bold are posted. Others are still to come.

The Story Thus Far...

(a synopsis of the Hope Serie
s)

Author's notes


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Chronological Listing of all the stories
in the Hope-Highlander Universe.
The Lady and the Tiger
Reborn
Methuselah's Gift
Bless the Child
Promises
Line of Fire
Manhunt
Eye for an Eye
To Be

2029: World population: 7.47 billion

THE LADY AND THE TIGER


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Phinyx European Headquarters
Schoenborn Palace, Prague
Friday, 14 December 2029

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"Tetrarch Karolina?" called Amshula from her station.  "Gate security scanners show this fellow has a sword hidden on him.  The blade's curved; could be a saber."

Karolina abandoned her manual on small-arms training and immediately punched the button that relayed the man's image to the counselor's com-screen, flagged Priority A-1.  Then she swiveled her chair around to take a look at the monitors on the far wall.

Monitor 4 showed the man--185 centimeters, powerful build, wearing a knee-length green cape over black trousers and white shirt--nodding pleasantly to the two uniformed Guardians at the outermost gate.  A plain-clothes Guardian, seated near the stone fountain and apparently enjoying the winter sunshine, kept her eye on him as he walked across the courtyard.  Monitor 8 (a view from inside the lobby) showed another plain-clothes on her way to the front of the reception desk, ready to delay him if ordered, trained to disarm or kill him if necessary.

Like most people, the man paused just outside the arched entryway of dark stone to look up at the carved stone garlands over the windows of the four-storied building, and camera 6 was perfectly positioned to take advantage of his predictable behavior.  His dark hair was cut short, and his clean-shaven face was improbably handsome.

"Mmm," murmured Amshula appreciatively.  "I'm off-shift in half an hour; maybe he'll still be here."

"You have class on assassination this afternoon," Karolina reminded the young woman.

"Not until two."

"It's nearly noon."

"For him, I'd skip lunch."

Karolina would, too.  But-- "You won't get the chance," Karolina said, for while they'd been talking, the counselor's reply had appeared on Karolina's com-screen.  Karolina sent the all-clear signal to the Guardians at the entry points, then told Amshula, "Sister Caorran's been assigned to escort him, and then he has an appointment."

"With who?"

"The counselor."

Amshula's eyebrows went up.  "Who is this guy?"

"Let's find out."  Karolina turned on the audio pick-up, and they heard the receptionist say, "Your name, please?"

The man's voice was pleasantly deep and darkly suggestive, just like his eyes.  "Duncan MacLeod."

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Duncan had just given his name to the receptionist when a woman dressed in a blue tunic and green leggings burst through the door to his right.  "Sara!" he called, and she came at him running and landed in his arms with a thump, just like when she'd been six years old.  Her hug was sweet and strong.

"What a surprise!" she said.  "I had no idea you were coming to Prague."

"A sudden whim," he answered, although--if he were completely honest--it was neither.

"I'm so glad," she said, moving back to look at him, the long braid of her hair swinging.  "Oh, my."

"What?"

Her fingertips brushed his temples, the hair that until recently had been gray and was once again black.  "You look so young."

"And you look beautiful," Duncan replied, sidestepping her comment with the ease of long experience, and with complete truthfulness.  Sara had inherited her mother's stunning features, though her hair was dark honey instead of pale gold, and her eyes were more gray than blue.  "Daniel's a lucky man."

"As long as he keeps thinking so," Sara said with a smile.  "Are you hungry?"

"I could eat."

"Then we will."  She turned to the woman at the reception desk.  "This is an old friend of my family's, Sister Marjeta," Sara said, linking her arm through his.  "I'll escort him while he's here."

"Yes, Sister Caorran," Marjeta said with a nod and then turned to answer a blinking phone.

"Sister Caorran?" Duncan repeated softly as they crossed the marble floor of the lobby and started up the grand curving staircase.

"That's what I'm called here.  Many of us chose new names.  It's a recognition of our commitment to the community, to the work."

"Like nuns?"

"Yes, in a way.  Only, not *all* the vows."

"I'm sure Daniel is glad about that."

She grinned impishly and said, "So am I."  At the top of the stairs, she pushed open a great brass-studded door.  Duncan followed her into a vast room full of light and shadows--light from the row of windows all along one wall, more light leaping from the mirrors and dancing from the chandeliers high above, and shadows from the past.  The long skirts of dancing women swirled by, as men in velvet and lace kept time with stamping boots and clapping hands, and musicians played at the far end of the salon.

"What?" Sara asked, and the shadows and the music disappeared.

He summoned a smile.  "Oh, just admiring."

"You mean remembering," she corrected.  "I know that look."

"I guess you would," he said.  She'd grown up with an Immortal, and she worked with one nearly everyday.

"When?"

Duncan thought back.  "In 1754.  Or maybe '55."  He pointed to the elaborate fireplace on the side wall.  "Right there is where Amanda set fire to a contessa's gown.  She got the fire put out."  His grin came of its own accord.  "She also got the contessa's jewels."

"Ah, Amanda," Sara said with a nod.  "I should have known."  Her gaze became intent upon him, grey-blue eyes searching his.

"What?" Duncan asked.

"You look so young," she repeated, and Duncan knew from experience that she wasn't going to let him side-step again.  Sara had a tendency toward stubbornness.  "Younger than I am," she added.  He'd died for the first time at the age of 29; Sara would soon be 33.  "I can't call you 'Uncle Duncan' anymore," Sara concluded.

Duncan had to nod.  "It could be …"

"Awkward," she finished for him, and Duncan nodded again.

"How about just 'Duncan'?" he suggested.

"Duncan," she repeated, trying it out.  "Why not?  It is your name.  Or was.  Have you gone back to it?"

"Mostly.  I started using it again a month ago, when I left New Zealand."  Mark Johnson had had a good life for thirty years--bought a farm in New Zealand, married a wonderful woman, raised two children, even held a granddaughter in his arms--but that life was over.  It was time for Mark Johnson to disappear and for Duncan MacLeod to return.

Sara pulled him to her for another hug, even stronger than before.  "I was so sorry to hear about Aunt Susan.  And to have it be so--"

"Thank you," he said quickly, cutting off the flow of  words.  Not that he didn't appreciate the sympathy behind them, but he'd heard those same phrases and accepted those same condolences more times than he wanted to remember since the plane crash five months before.  "The flowers you and Daniel sent were beautiful," Duncan said. "Susan loved white roses."

"I know.  She would always show us her garden when we visited."  Sara pulled back, but kept hold of his hands.  "Did you sell the farm?"

He nodded.  "I signed the papers six weeks ago. Neither Paula or Tom is interested in sheep farming.  But it went to a good family.  They'll keep it well."

"That's good," she said.  "I'm glad Colin's kept our farm in the Highlands.  I can't live there, but I like having it still be in the family."

"I know what you mean," Duncan agreed.  "And it's been good for your dad, too, being able to live in the caretaker cottage there these last three years.  The Highlands have always been his home."

"Colin says he's doing OK," Sara said with a quick nod and a tight smile.  "Better than that first year after Mom died."

Duncan would have given Sara a hug then, but she let go of his hands and turned away to open a small door that was blended into the wainscoting on the wall.

A long hallway, another set of stairs, and two more doors found them at a dining hall, busy with the chatter of voices (mostly female) and the clink of dishes.  They chose food from a buffet, then Sara picked out a table for two near a window overlooking a garden, all bare twigs and gray stone at this time of year, save for a pair of magnificent hollies in the distance.  "Cassandra won't be joining us?" Duncan asked as they sat down.

"She wishes she could, but the president asked her to call him at 12:15.  I'll take you to see her after lunch."

"The president of Phinyx Company?"

"The president of the United States."  Duncan blinked at that, and Sara explained, "She was on his staff when he was a senator.  They're good friends."

"I see."  Duncan started on his soup, deciding to save his questions about that for Cassandra.  "How have you been, Sara?"

"Busy.  Daniel's out of town for a conference this week, and Alea has a cold, and then work is always hectic this time of year, organizing food distribution and fuel rationing for the winter."

"I thought you looked a little tired."

She wrinkled her nose in a quick grimace of irritation.  "That, and I had a miscarriage last week."

"Oh, Sara."  He reached across the table for her hand.  "I'm so sorry.  This is … the second?"

"The third."  He started to speak, but she cut off his expressions of sympathy just as he'd cut off hers.  "I've had one child."  Her smile was determinedly brave as she squeezed his hand and let go.  "That's more than most women these days.  I'm lucky."

She was.  In the last dozen years, the sterility plague had spread across the globe.  Births were rare, and many schools for young children stood empty and silent.  On the positive side, orphanages were mostly empty, too.  "How's Alea?" he asked, and as he had hoped, just the mention of the little girl's name brought a proud smile to Sara's face.

"Very happy to be three.  She loves music; she's always singing.  And there are other children here, so she has playmates."

"She's here, in this building?"

"Oh, yes.  We have a daycare and a school here.  It's almost naptime, but we can see her later this afternoon."

"I'd like that," Duncan said then switched to the older generation. "Have you seen your dad lately?"

"In September."  Sara sliced her potato in two with a single, neat stroke.  "He stopped by here for a few days on his way back to the Highlands after he was with you in New Zealand."  She looked up then.  "He said it was good to spend time with you."

"It was," Duncan agreed.  "We haven't done that very often lately."

"Often? Do you mean the last fifty years?" Sara teased.  "Or the last hundred?"

"Hundred, I guess," Duncan said with some surprise.  Connor had been busy raising Rachel in the 1940s and '50s, and then he'd opened the antique shop in New York City.  There had been that sailing trip in '77, but then Duncan had met Tessa and Connor had married Brenda, so there went the '80s.  For the last thirty years, their families had kept them busy on opposite sides of the globe.  They'd seen each other, of course, at least every other year, but a holiday with wives and kids wasn't the same as two clansmen roaming the world.  "In fact," Duncan said, "we had such a good time that I'm on my way to Scotland to see him again.  You'll be at the farm for the holidays, right?"

"I don't think so, Duncan.  Not this year.  Things are so busy."

"All the more reason to come."  He leaned forward with an encouraging smile.  "John and Gina are coming, and Rachel, and of course there are horses.  Alea would love that, right?  I know you miss riding.  We can celebrate my birthday, your and Colin's birthday, Christmas, New Year's Eve, and then your dad's birthday … And we'll be walking to the stones to see the sunrise on the solstice."

"The solstice stones," she said softly, looking away, a faint smile on her face.  Then she shrugged.  "That's a guy thing."

"Sara," he said reprovingly.  "It's a MacLeod thing."

She smiled even as she shook her head.  "I'm not a MacLeod anymore; I'm Sister Caorran here at work and Sara Harulfson at home."

"You'll always be a MacLeod, Sara," Duncan told her firmly, "no matter what name you bear.  The name doesn't matter."

"Yes, it does," she corrected, then proved it by calling him by name: "Duncan MacLeod of the clan MacLeod."

"All right," he allowed.  "It does matter.  But whether you call yourself one or not, you're a MacLeod.  And you should come home for the holidays, Christmas at least.  It would mean a lot to your father to have you there."

"It would mean a lot to me, too," she answered softly.  Her faint smile reappeared.  "Maybe we will.  I'll talk to Daniel, see about our schedules."

"Good," Duncan said, satisfied.

"You'll have to die your hair gray again," she pointed out.  "Colin's wife doesn't know about Immortals, and neither does Daniel."

"I know," Duncan said, grimacing as he ran his hand through his hair.  "I still have a little dye left.  It'll be enough."

She was silent for a moment, seemed about to speak, but then stood and announced, "I'm getting some coffee, and I think I saw blueberry chiffon tarts at the dessert table.  Join me?"

Duncan was already on his feet.  "Of course."  Halfway to the buffet, he stopped and turned, hearing a familiar voice at a nearby table.  But the man's hair was too dark a brown, the chin too narrow, the eyes the wrong shade of blue.

"He sounds just like Colin, doesn't he?" Sara asked.  "I did the same thing when I first heard him.  Sometimes, I still do."

"Who is he?" Duncan asked as they poured coffee into white china mugs.

"Paul Edgerton, my half-brother."

"Your biological father …"

Sara was nodding.  " … got married and had a family of his own.  Colin and I have two half-sisters, too.  They're still in England.  Paul's really good with computers; the Sheffield office hired him seven years ago.  He transferred here last spring."

"Does he know?"

"No," she said, placing a tart on her tray.  "I don't look that much like his sisters, and he's never met Colin."

Duncan selected apple strudel, and they finished their luncheon with talk of Alea's antics and Duncan's plans.  "Paris, after the holidays, I think," he told Sara.  "It's true, you know; it really is beautiful in the spring."

"You love Paris," Sara said, an observation that surprised him, coming from her, even though it was true.

"As they say, it's a city of love."  It had been for him, and more than once.  Perhaps it could be again.

She nodded, but then her eyes unfocused slightly, as if she were listening to voices only she could hear.  She probably was; subdermal receivers left your hands free, and couldn't be mislaid or stolen like phones.  The two guards at the gate and the guard at the fountain had them; Duncan was sure.  Sara's eyes focused again, and she asked, "Should we go see Cassandra now?"  Duncan nodded, and they carried their trays to the wash line then left the hall.

They'd gone up one flight of stairs and halfway down a corridor when Duncan nearly collided with a trim young woman in gray.  "Excuse me," he said.

"No, excuse me," she replied, her hand resting lightly on his arm, her smile bright and warm.  Unlike most of the women he'd seen today, her hair was clipped very short, a soft velvet blackness close to her skull.  Her skin was dusky cream, her eyes chocolate brown.

"Guard Amshula," Sara greeted her, and Duncan realized that Amshula's gray jumpsuit with black piping was a military uniform of some kind.  The only insignia she wore was an enameled pin on her collar, a silver sword upright behind a circlet of olive leaves.  He'd seen the same badge on the guards outside.  Sara wore a pin, too, though hers was of a blue and white earth spinning on an axis of gold.

"Sister Caorran," Amshula replied, letting go of Duncan's arm.

Duncan offered Amshula his hand.  "I'm Duncan MacLeod."

Her handshake was quick and firm, her smile even brighter than before.  "My name's Amshula; I'm glad to meet you.  Have you been to Prague before?"

"Yes, but not for some time.  Things have changed."

"Perhaps I could show you around," she offered.  "I moved here two years ago from India, and I have come to love this town."

"He's on his way to an appointment," Sara told her.

"And I am on my way to a class.  But later?  Three-thirty?"

A walk in the city on this cold, sunny day sounded like an excellent way to recuperate from hours on airplanes and trains.  But Amshula obviously was also interested in another type of exercise, and Duncan wasn't. Not now. But explaining why would bring forth either sympathy or an attempt to "console" him, and Duncan didn't want either. He hadn't wanted them from Amanda, and he certainly didn't want them from a mortal woman he'd just met. "I'm sorry," he said, giving her a sincerely apologetic smile. "I'll be busy."

"Perhaps tomorrow?"

"I'm afraid I'll be leaving in the morning."

"Ah." Her gaze swept from his feet to his face then she gave him another dazzingly smile as she handed him her card. Her fingers were warm against his palm. "If you'll be in Prague again, v-mail me."

Duncan's smile promised nothing, but she seemed to take it as a good sign. There was a definite sway to her hips as she walked away. "Friendly girl," he commented to Sara as they continued down the hall.

"Very friendly," came the dry reply.  They turned the corner, and Duncan stiffened slightly as the sensation of another Immortal's presence ran up his spine and settled at the base of his skull.  "No need to knock, is there?" Sara noted, then opened a wooden door.  

"Duncan!" Cassandra called, and she met him halfway across the long, narrow room.  "It's so good to see you again," she said as she kissed his cheek and briefly clasped his hands.

It seemed Cassandra still wasn't much for hugging, at least not with him.  But her eyes were bright, her smile genuine, and she looked happy and at ease.  Quite a change from the woman who'd appeared in his dojo thirty-three years ago, speaking words of an ancient prophecy and begging him to kill a man who had hunted her--and haunted her--for years.  Quite a change, too, from the raging virago who, six months after that, had set out to kill another enemy while battling nightmares from her past.  Ten years of therapy and twenty years of working at a job she liked had helped her enormously.

"Cassandra," he said and kissed her cheek in return.  Behind him, he heard the door shut as Sara disappeared into the hall.

"Come sit down," Cassandra invited, leading the way past the desk to a pair of comfortable chairs standing in front of the multi-paned window that went from ceiling to floor.  She set her knee-length hair to one side as she seated herself, her turquoise skirt flaring about her and her long, silver earrings sparkling in the sunshine.  "How have you been?" she asked, but the intensity of her gaze and warmth of the words made it more than the standard conversational opener.

Duncan ducked it anyway.  "All right."

She didn't take his hint to leave it alone.  Cassandra, like Sara, had a tendency toward stubbornness.  "Saying goodbye is always hard," she said softly.

"Especially when you don't get the chance to say it," he retorted, and saw with a brief flare of satisfaction how she winced at the pain in his words.

"That does make it worse," she agreed, her eyes far away, and he realized that some of the pain was her own.  "I'm sorry for your loss, Duncan," she said, and that formal phrase gave them both a place to hide.

"Thank you," he replied simply.

Cassandra finally got the message and changed the subject.  "So, you're Duncan MacLeod again."

"I've been Mark Johnson for thirty years.  It's time."

"Connor would certainly agree.  Though not, perhaps, on the choice of name."

Cassandra's witch-powers didn't seem to be working today.  "Connor suggested it," Duncan told her.

Her eyebrows went up, but then she nodded.  "Being Connor MacLeod again has been good for him.  And giving his name to his children  He's always wanted that."

So did Duncan.  Maybe someday …

"How does it feel?" she asked.  "To be Duncan MacLeod again?"

"Good.  But different."

"Because you're different?" she asked.

Duncan considered that.  "Maybe."  Living under another name had changed him.  But just plain living had changed him, too, and as of next week, he'd have 438 years of that.  No matter.  "Duncan MacLeod is who I am, and who I'll always be."  It was long past his turn to ask her a question.  "Is Cassandra the name your father gave you?"

"No," she said, her eyes going distant, looking into the past.  "That name is gone.  That girl died, long ago."  Cassandra focused on him, returning to the here and now.  "The lady of the temple told me what I was, and then she gave me my name."  She smiled as she repeated his phrase: "Cassandra is who I am, and who I'll always be."

"As Connor will always be Connor."

She nodded, her smile lingering, then prodded, "And Methos?"

"I suppose.  He's had that name for five thousand years."

"But he hasn't used it for the last two thousand years."  The words sharpened.  "Except with you."

"And with Amanda and Dawson," Duncan pointed out.  "And with you."

"He had no choice with me.  I knew his name."

And his past.  The words went unsaid between them.  Silence could be sharp, too.  So could secrets; they all knew that.

"What can I do for you, Duncan?" Cassandra asked suddenly, warm and friendly again.  "This isn't simply a social visit."

"No," he agreed.  "You and I never go to each other unless we need something."

"True enough," she said, almost sadly.  "Though I do take pleasure in your company, Duncan, and I would like to be your friend.  And so, if I can help you now, I will.  What can I do for you?" she asked once again.

It shouldn't be hard to ask this one simple question of her, and yet … it was.  Was the reason pride?  A desire for privacy?  A reluctance to expose this want--this need--in him?  Especially to her? But what business was it of hers?  None at all.  And it wasn't as if he were the only one interested; she'd been the first to bring up his name.  "I'm looking for Methos," Duncan said.

Cassandra, annoyingly enough, did not seem surprised.  "Have you asked Emory Dawson?"

"She said she couldn't help."  Which, Duncan knew, didn't mean she didn't know.  Not that Emory would lie to him, but she would protect Methos's privacy, if he'd asked her to.  She'd been good at keeping secrets even before she'd met Joe Dawson; ten years of marriage to a Watcher had just given her extra practice. Had Methos asked her to keep quiet?  And if so, why?  Duncan hadn't wanted to put Emory on the spot, so he hadn't pressed her for more information.  Cassandra was another story.  "Do you know where he is?"

"No.  I'm sorry, Duncan, I can't help you, either."

"I thought you kept track of him."

"I try," she said dryly.  "Sometimes I even succeed.  But mostly, I have to wait for him to come to me."

So had Duncan, over the years.  He was tired of waiting.

"The last time I saw him was two and a half years ago, at Alex's funeral," she said.

That was the last time Duncan had seen him, too.  Methos hadn't come to Susan's funeral; Duncan hadn't known how to reach him.  Two weeks after, flowers had arrived, with a card that read only, "My deepest condolences.  M."

"He was living in Toronto then," Cassandra continued, "studying engineering at university, but he was graduated in December that year.  Amanda might know where he went."

She didn't.  Duncan had already asked.  "Thanks anyway, Cassandra," he said.

"If he contacts me, I'll tell him you'd like to see him," she offered.

Methos knew that already.  Or he should.  Duncan let it go with a nod, then asked, "So, what did you and the president have to talk about today?"

She blinked once before she answered.  "His daughter would like to have a child.  He called to see how the fertility research was going."

"And how is it going?"

"Slowly."

"Is that all you talked about?"

"Oh no, Tom and I are old friends.  We talked about his dog, his wife, his golf game, and his strategy for reelection in the fall.  He's worried about the coalition of Reds and Blues holding together, especially with Texas and New England each threatening to secede because of the other's laws."

"States' rights," commented Duncan sourly.  That issue had torn the U.S. apart nearly two hundred years before; it might again.

"Mmm," Cassandra murmured, though whether in agreement or disagreement, Duncan couldn't tell.  He fought back a sudden urge to yawn, and Cassandra said, "You must be tired from traveling.  Would you like a room to rest in for a few hours, perhaps spend the night?  You and I can  talk more over dinner, and you could play with Alea this afternoon. We also have a fully equipped gym."

"That would be wonderful, thank you." A nap, a playdate with Alea, a brisk stroll around Prague followed by some exercise, then dinner with Cassandra and a place to spend the night.  "Perfect."

Cassandra opened the narrow door behind her desk and beckoned to the young woman in the adjoining room.  "Sister Janna, would you please escort Mr. MacLeod to a guest room?  The third floor."

"Of course, Sister," she said, smiling shyly at Duncan as she opened the door to the hall.  "This way."

"I'll see you at dinner, Duncan," Cassandra promised, and she waited until Duncan and Janna were all the way down the hall before she shut her office door.  As Cassandra turned around, the narrow door near the bookshelves opened, and Sara stepped into the room.  She sat on the edge of Cassandra's desk, her feet swinging, while Cassandra leaned back in her desk chair.

"Why does he want Methos?" Sara asked, getting right to the heart of things, as usual.

"To take his mind off Susan?  Methos always gives Duncan plenty to think about."

"Why do you think Methos hasn't been in touch with him?"

"Perhaps because he knows that Duncan needs to think about Susan some more.  Six months isn't much time after losing a wife of twenty-three years."

Sara nodded sagely.  "Doesn't want to be caught on the rebound.  Who does?"  She grinned.  "Not you, that's for sure."

"Impudent chit," Cassandra retorted.

The grin grew wider.  "That means I'm right."

She was, but … "Timing is always important, and between your father and me, with our history …," Cassandra started to explain, but Sara waved it away.

"I know," she said fondly.  "You want him to be happy, and you also want him to want you.  So you're waiting to see if he's ready.  I get it.  I'd do the same."  She started rearranging the pens in their holder, matching orphan lids to topless pens, and looking up occasionally from beneath her bangs.  "Do you think Uncle Duncan--I mean Duncan-- is ready?  For sex?  Or for a relationship?"

"Maybe.  People grieve in different ways.  They heal in different ways.  Sex can be healing. Duncan seems to find it so. Within a month after his long-time lover Tessa died in the 1990s, he'd been with two women."

"He turned one down today. Amshula nearly ambushed him on the way here, and even though he ducked her invitation--twice--she still gave him her card. Maybe she should be reassigned to the fourth floor."

"A courtesan requires empathy as well as enthusiasm," Cassandra reminded her.  "Her psych eval was accurate; she belongs where she is, with the Guardians.  She'll settle down in a few years."

Sara looked skeptical, but she didn't argue the point. "Still ... Uncle Duncan's been married so long, and he likes women so much.  I can't see him with a man."

"I can," Cassandra said.  "At least this one." She'd seen them together only a few times, but whenever they spoke of each other, she'd heard the intensity in their voices and seen the yearning in their eyes.  A cautious yearning in Methos, an uncertain yearning in Duncan, but yearning all the same.  But before his quarter century with a family of his own, Duncan hadn't been ready.  He still wasn't, not quite.  But soon.

"Does that bother you?" Sara asked.  "I mean, not him and a man, but him and Methos?"

"Actually, I rather like it.  Methos will keep Duncan busy, and Duncan will keep Methos in line."  And she wouldn't have to worry about either of them bothering about her.

Sara pushed the pen holder--now organized--aside.   Her feet stopped their swinging.  "Why did you tell Duncan the research was going slowly?"

"It is."

"I was reading Grace's report while you talked to Duncan.  She says the new vaccine looks promising."

"It still needs to be tested, and that takes years."

"I don't have years," she said, tossing her braid back over her shoulder, her mouth set in that stubborn line Cassandra knew very well.  "I'm going to volunteer."

"Caorran--," Cassandra began, using her special name, her name of power, the name Cassandra had gifted her with when Sara had turned seven years old, on a winter day of silent voices and quiet snow.

"I've dreamed of my son, Cassandra!" Sara said, that power humming within her now.  "I've seen him, alive and well, and standing between me and Daniel."  She leaned forward eagerly.  "I want another child."

So did many women.  "It could be an adopted son," Cassandra pointed out.

"He's not."

Cassandra paused.  "The dream is that clear?"

"Yes."

Cassandra's dreams had never been that clear.  But each talent was unique, and Caorran's foresight had been uncannily accurate before.  Cassandra had hopes that the tendency would breed true, in Alea and in the offspring of Colin, and Paul, the half-brother, and the two half-sisters in England, too.  And to have a boy from Caorran …  Yes, indeed.  "You should discuss it with Daniel first," Cassandra said.

"I'm going to, as soon as he gets home."  She stretched her arms behind her head, cracking joints and flexing muscles.  "Council meeting tonight.  Full regalia, right?"

She nodded.  "It's Nina's investiture as Healer.  It'll be good to have nine members again."

"Yeah, no more tied votes," Sara said, but Cassandra knew the number nine had more benefits than that.  Three-filled three, nine months from conception to birth, nine muses of poetry and dance …

"At least we don't call it the Gray Council," Sara said.  "And we don't have to wear long gray robes with enormous hoods, and we have chairs so we can sit down."

Cassandra laughed aloud, remembering a television show from forty years before.  "Your mother let you watch too much TV."

"Babylon 5 was on DVD," Sara protested.  "Just like Star Trek.  Those spotlights on the Gray Council reminded me of transporter beams.  Colin and I were always waiting for Scotty to beam them up."

"What a cross-over that would be," Cassandra said then continued in a horrible Scottish accent, "Captain, I dinna have coordinates for that alternate universe programmed in ma transporter!  It'll blow up the ship, fer sure."

"Och, ma wee puir bairrrns," Sara joined in, clasping a hand over her heart.  "Ma engines, ma bonny, bonny engines."  She fell over sideways on the desk and croaked, "I'm dead, Jim."

"Then why are you still talking?"

"Oh, come on, Cassandra," she said, sitting up again and pulling her legs up so she could wrap her arms about her knees.  "Nobody really dies on shows.  They always come back somehow.  Like Immortals."

Except it wasn't "always," even for Immortals.

Sara knew that, too.  "Who do you miss?" she asked softly.  "Which Immortals do you wish were still alive?"

"Only the Immortals?"

She shrugged.  "You know we're going to die; that's a given.  So you're not in for the long haul.  But with Immortals, you might think, 'This person I can know for centuries, maybe for my whole life.'  That's got to be different."

"Yes," Cassandra agreed.  "There's that chance, that hope for the future."

"So who do you miss?" Sara asked again.

"Oh my."  Cassandra leaned back in her chair, thinking.  "The lady of the temple, most of all.  She was my first teacher, my mother in a way.  Kalia, a priestess there, a sister to me.  I could use her help now.  Ramirez, of course, my fourth husband.  I miss Rebecca, though I never knew her.  I wish we had met.  And I miss Orlath.  She had such brilliance, such joy."

"Your student?"

"Yes, but not in Immortality.  Ceirdwyn was her teacher for that.  I taught Orlath pottery, weaving, music, the arts.  We lived in a monastery in Ireland, before the Vikings came for the gold."  Before Roland came for her.  Cassandra suppressed a shudder and banished the memories, then sat up straight.  "Thank you, Sara, for asking that.  Sometimes we Immortals focus on old enemies so much we forget about our old friends."

"It's neat to hear about them.  I think I'll ask my dad the same thing, when I see him over the holidays."

"I'm glad you've decided to go," Cassandra said.

"Me, too."  Sara hopped off the desk and headed for the door.

"Sara," Cassandra called, and the young woman turned around.  "I don't think Duncan needed to know I was talking with the president."

That stubborn look was back again.  "I think he did."

"Your father has appointed himself my guardian.  Your mother set Methos on my trail.  I do not need your Uncle Duncan looking over my shoulder, too."

Sara cocked her head to one side, looking very much like her mother often had.  "When I was six, you told me, 'Need and want are not the same.'"

Cassandra forced herself to confront the truth of that.  She didn't want Duncan looking over her shoulder, but in Sara's opinion, she needed him to.  And maybe Sara was right.  Like mother like daughter, again.

"I've always remembered that, Cassandra, because you were right."  Sara waved cheerfully then left the room.

"Impudent chit," Cassandra said once more, but she was smiling, and the words were full of love.


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Hamburg, Germany
Friday, 14 December 2029
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"I'm concerned about the corrision at that temperature and pressure," Hans pointed out, and three of the others at the table nodded intently. Michelle sighed.

Kyle took a slow and thoughtful drink of beer. "What about a preceramic polymer coating?"

"Siloxane?" Kirstin suggested.

"Or maybe silicon nitride," Claude replied.  "A binder would reduce void formation during manufacture, though the material would need reinfiltration."

"That can get expensive. Maybe if we...."  Kirstin started sketching a diagram on a cocktail napkin, only to have Michelle reach across the table and take it from her hands.

"Stop that," Michelle said sternly. "We've been designing that rocket engine for more than a year, and we work on it every single day. It's Friday night. We're in a bar. We have beer. There is music." She waved her hand behind her at the people the dance floor and the trio of musicians in the corner, who were pounding out a song from half a century ago while their singer wailed, "Don't touch me, please. I can not stand the way you tease!"

"On Monday," Michelle concluded, "we go back to the Research Center and we design the rocket that will take us to the stars. But tonight, we have fun."

Kyle laughed and lifted his beer to her in salute. "Well said!" That had been his philosophy for many years. Enjoy now, and work another day.

Claude followed his example and saluted too, then set his empty mug down with a solid thump. "Tonight, we drink!"

"Tonight, we dance," Kirstin added, with a saucy smile and a twinkle in her eye. She offered her hand to Hans, and he stood with a quick bow and went with her to the dance floor.

Kyle offered his hand to Michelle, but she shook her head. "Not this song." He didn't ask her why, simply nodded and turned slightly to watch the dancers. Hans and Kirstin had traded partners already; it was that kind of dance and that kind of crowd: young, unattached, and frenetic. Their energy had an air of desperation, rather like the macabre balls during the years of the Black Death. The voices around them were mostly German, but quite a few speaking Dutch or using English or French as a common tongue to communicate. Refugees from the drowned lands, no doubt.

He turned back to Michelle and Claude and joined their conversation about time-shift anomalies in the various Star Trek alternate universes--an engineer's idea of nerdvana. When the song ended, Kirstin and Hans came back with more beer and happily joined in.

Yet even the fascination of sci-fi occasionally paled. Kirstin was expounding on her theory that the gate at the City of Forever was actually a Star Gate and the guardian was an ascended being, when the men abruptly stopped listening. A woman had walked into the bar.

No, not walked. This woman prowled. Above high-heeled sandals, black leather laces crisscrossed their way up ankle, calf, and knee. Bare thighs gleamed beneath a very short skirt of green, and a sleeveless vest of black leather with only two buttons exposed arms, midriff, and back, but just a tantalizing glimpse of bosom. Her left hand was at her shoulder, holding onto a dark green cape that floated behind her like water and shifted at every breath. Cloud cloth, they called it, the latest release from the Ephesus line. At the corner of each eye she had drawn the eye of Horus in black eyeliner, and her lips were the color of blood. So were her nails. Long, red tresses streamed down her back, and her only jewelry was a choker of green satin ribbon wound around her neck. She paused at the edge of the dance floor, a faint smile playing about her lips as she scanned the crowd.
 
"Looks like Cat Woman forgot her whip," Kirstin remarked and turned back to her drink.

Michelle punched Hans on the shoulder. "Breathe, man. Breathe." He nodded, but neither he nor Claude looked away.

They didn't need to. The woman was heading towards their table, apparently having found who she was looking for. The three men stood as she came near, and Michelle and Kirstin rolled their eyes at each other. Kyle took a step away from his chair and reminded himself to breathe.

"Philippe!" the woman exclaimed, her voice low and throaty and filled with the memory of silken nights and wanton days--and the promise of more to come.

"Serena," Kyle greeted her, swallowing in a throat gone dry. To either side of him, he was vaguely aware of the dumfounded expressions of his co-workers. She smiled, slowly, lusciously, then flowed into his arms. Her mouth tasted of brandy, and her hair felt like silk.

"Who the hell is Phillipe?" he dimly heard Hans say. "And how does Kyle know her?"

"He knows her extremely well, it seems," Michelle's voice said dryly.

Methos (a.k.a. Kyle Winston a.k.a. Philippe Jarbeau a.k.a. a thousand other names) didn't respond. His tongue and lips were occupied, and his hands and arms and all his senses were filled with the delectably insatiable Serena.

Enjoy now, and work another day.

~~~~~

Perhaps he should change that to: Enjoy the night and the day. And another day. And another. Finally, on Tuesday morning, he said, "I have to go to work."

Serena stretched, in the only way she could, with her toes pointed and her arms over her head. Her movements tightened the green satin ribbon that outlined each breast and wound once about her throat. She blinked slowly through heavy-lidded eyes. "Why?"

"I'm the lead engineer on a project. We need to finish by spring, and my team needs me."

She pouted prettily. "I need you."

Methos leaned over and lightly traced a finger down the bridge of her nose, across her lips, pausing on the lower one long enough for her to open her mouth and swirl the tip of her tongue across his finger. He moved on, following the curve of her chin and skimming across the delicate skin of her throat, ending in the hollow where her heartbeat showed. His fingertip caught in the ribbon and twisted it tight just for a moment, and she drew in a sharp hiss of breath. On his finger moved, sliding in a straight line between her breasts and onto the softer skin below. Then lower, and lower, more and more slowly, then lower still...

Her eyes were closed now, her breathing shallow, and her creamy skin flushed. "Philippe..."

"Time for work," he said cheerfully and got off the bed.

"Philippe!"

He held up two shirts. "What do you think? Blue or white?" She didn't answer, pouting not so prettily now, so he finished dressing without her help. "I'll be back around five," he told her, with one hand on the doorknob.

"I want to see where you work," she announced.

He'd been expecting her to protest his exit, but he hadn't expected to hear that. He shrugged. "It's a research lab. Lots of computers, equipment, machines…"

For once, her smile was amused instead of enticing. "Yes. For designing rocket engines. I know. My company is one of the Research Center's sponsors."

"Your company?"

"Kerametallen."

Kerametallen, the company that made the preceramic polymer coating he'd suggested on Friday night. The company for innovative technology in materials engineering. The company that Michelle and Hans were both hoping to get jobs with once the project was done. Methos came back over and sat on the edge of the bed.

"I'm not just a pretty face with a gorgeous body, you know," Serena informed him, then stretched once again to remind him just how gorgeous her body was.

"Clearly," he agreed, enjoying the show.

"I'll go home for some clothes then meet you after lunch at the Research Center. Yes?"

"Yes," he agreed again.

"One more thing before you leave for work, Philippe."

"Yes?" She didn't answer, and he finally dragged his gaze back to her face.

"Untie me."

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At the center, conversations stopped when he entered a room. Methos had expected that. Calling in "sick" on Monday had given the rumor mill plenty of time and even more material. He'd also expected the sly grins, ribald comments, and clandestine questions from the men. He rather enjoyed the speculative glances and smiles from the women. They hadn't had much interest in Kyle Winston, the polite yet boring Canadian engineer, before. But, they were obviously thinking, if a Cat Woman without a whip is willing to fall into his arms—and spend three days in his bed-- there must be more to this fellow than meets the eye.

So true.

Methos got through the morning with bland smiles and a frequently repeated explanation: "We were in theater together in college. Philippe was my name in a play."

So not true.

After lunch, Methos met Serena in the lobby. She'd donned the sensible outfit of a business woman and pulled her hair into a neat braid coiled at the base of her neck. She was even wearing horn-rimmed glasses.  And, Methos was willing to bet a month's salary, underneath it all she was wearing exotic and expensive lingerie that could only be purchased by appointment in a private boutique in Berlin. Or perhaps she was wearing nothing at all. He looked up from his speculative perusal, only to met her amused and knowing eyes.

"Mr. Winston," she greeted him politely.

"Miss Gordon." He was equally polite.

"I believe you will be showing me the facilities?"

"I'd be delighted."

They wandered about the building, and conversations stopped even more abruptly than they had this morning. The men were busy ogling, the women busy evaluating. Serena--true to her name--seemed serenely oblivious to it all. Methos headed for a less crowded area.

It was in the machine shop, between the drill press and the water abrasion tank, that she popped the question. "Will you go into space with me?"

"Space?" Someday, yes, he wanted to. That was why he'd started working here, sothat in the future he could see new worlds. But that was a long-term goal. "I'm an engineer, not an astronaut."

"Nor am I. But they do sell rides."

"Right." He nearly laughed. "For how many million?"

"Seventy-two. I can get us both round-trip tickets."

"Right," he said again. She said nothing, merely raised an eyebrow in challenge. Methos ran his hand through his hair. "You want to spend one hundred forty-four million to go up in a rocket, orbit the earth for a while, and them come back down."

"Yes."

"Lot of money to look out the window."

"Oh, we wouldn't be spending all the time looking out the window."

"Ah." He nodded as the image of silken red tresses floating all about them came to mind.

"Think of it, Philippe," she said, stepping closer to him and laying one hand on his chest, just above his heart. "All that money will help fund the project, while you and I can have a private adventure."
 
"Mmm."

Sometime during the tour she had removed her glasses. She smiled up at him through dark lashes then whispered the most seductive words of all: "It will be new."

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REBORN


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The MacLeod Farm, Highlands of Scotland
1 January 2030
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"Happy birthday, Dad," Sara said one more time and kissed him on the cheek.  His skin was cold against her lips, chilled by the winter wind that swept down from the hills to Loch Shiel below.  "And happy new year."

"Thanks, sweetheart," he said and kissed her forehead, gently.  "I'm glad you came."  Then he turned to Daniel, who was swinging the last of the luggage into the car boot.  "You got everything?"

"I think that's it," Daniel said.  "Three suitcases full of clothes, two full of boots and hats and gloves, one full of Christmas presents …"  He shook his head in mock dismay, squinting against the winter sunshine.  "There may not be enough room for us on the airplane."four hundred forty years ago

Alea reached up and tugged at her dad's coat, her dark blue eyes full of worry, her black hair hidden beneath a red cap.  A purple pig was clutched firmly under her arm.  "There'll be enough room for Wiglet, won't there, Daddy?"

"Yes, Alea," Daniel said, scooping her--with Wiglet--up into his arms.  "We'll make sure there's room for Wiglet, even if we have to leave some of your presents behind."

"Daddy!" she squealed.  "We can't leave my presents."

"No?"

"No! They're Christmas presents.  You have to keep them.  That's the rule."

"Well, if that's the rule …"

"It is," Alea proclaimed, with all the totalitarian assurance of an almost three-year-old.

"Ok.  We'll keep all your presents, and Wiglet, too."  He winked at Sara then tossed Alea over his shoulder, making her squeal again, this time in delight.  "Last look?"

"Last look," Sara agreed, a tradition they'd started on their honeymoon, when he'd left his shoes at a hotel and the next day she'd left her hairbrush on a train.  Sara called after him, "Make sure Alea—"

"—uses the bathroom, I know," he finished for her, and carried Alea through the garden and into the gray two-story farmhouse, bouncing her on his shoulders all the way.

Sara could remember Dad doing the exact same thing to her.

"You cold?" Dad asked, when she shivered.  "We can wait in the cottage."

It wasn't far, just a little ways down the graveled drive, but Sara said, "I'm fine."  She turned to look at the hills far across the loch, breathing deeply.  "I like the smell of the air.  I miss it."

Dad nodded and turned with her, laying his arm across her shoulders.  The bitter wind ruffled his thick, gray hair.

This summer, when he'd visited her in Prague, he'd shown her a picture of himself with short, brown hair and a beard.  "Duncan and I camped out a lot," he'd explained.  "Dye jobs are no fun in a mountain stream."  He'd rubbed his knuckles along his jaw.  "Stopped shaving, too."

"Like old times," Sara had put in.  Very old times.

He'd nodded then hidden the picture away.  "Daniel and Alea shouldn't see me like this.  It would be … awkward."

"Yeah," she'd agreed lightly, yet awkward herself.  He'd had gray hair since she was a teenager, and without it, and without his unnecessary bifocals, he didn't quite look like Dad.

But now, with gray hair again and with his glasses on, he did.  Sara reached up and laid her hand atop his, and he tightened his grip into a quick hug.  "I'm glad you came," he said again.

"Me, too.  I had to, didn't I?"  She met his eyes straight on.  "It's the last family Christmas."  She'd realized that, talking to Duncan, who couldn't be her Uncle Duncan in public anymore, just as her dad soon couldn't be "Dad."

"Yeah," he said softly.  "It is," and at those words, her eyes suddenly filled with tears.  "Sara, I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault," she answered right away, because she knew that he had never asked to be Immortal, and he didn't want it to be this way, either, and life wasn't ever going to be fair.  The secret of immortality had to be kept.  She'd known that since she was nine.  Mom and Dad and Cassandra had explained it to her and Colin then, and Aunt Rachel had talked about it, too.  They had all kept the secret, all these years, and Sara had to keep it, too.  "It's just … how it is."  She wiped at her eyes and made herself smile.  "I love you, Dad," she promised then added a pledge from her schoolgirl days.  "Forever and for always."

"I love you, too, princess," Dad said, holding her close.  He hadn't called her that in a while.

Sara closed her eyes and inhaled the scent of him--the bitterness of coffee, the sweaty tang of horses, the hint of lemon aftershave.  Then a door slammed in the distance, and Alea and Daniel came down the drive, followed by John and Gina and their two kids, Colin and Oona and their three dogs, and Duncan and Rachel, all coming to bid Sara and her family farewell.  Sara kissed her dad on the cheek again and blinked back yet more tears.  "Goodbye, Daddy."

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That afternoon, Connor joined Duncan at the living room window in the cottage, and handed him a glass of whisky.  They stood in silence, drinking, looking past the rain-flattened pasture to the gray waters of the loch far below.  Gray clouds shifted slowly with the wind above.  Finally, Connor asked, "Want to go for a walk?"

"Sure," Duncan answered.  "Where?"

"Mount Everest."

Duncan's glass stopped halfway to his lips.  "You're kidding."

Connor shrugged.  "You got something better to do?"

Duncan glanced behind them at the cottage: the shelves of neatly arranged books, the forlorn Christmas tree in the corner, the unwashed lunch dishes in the sink, the sofa bed still unmade.  Connor had been living here for nearly three years; Duncan had been visiting for nearly two weeks, and for both of them, it was time to go.  "No."

And so they went.  First to the peak of Mount Everest, then from Death Valley to Mount Whitney, the lowest point to the highest point in the state of South California.  When they reached the top of Mount Whitney, they turned around and hiked back to Death Valley.  Then they headed north.  The glaciers of the Canadian Rockies beckoned, and Connor and Duncan had nothing better to do.  They paid the appropriate bribes to the guards on both sides of the border near Lake Tahoe, then filed their paperwork and paid more bribes at the Canadian border.  After the glaciers, they continued north as far as they could go.  Duncan suggested the Amazon rainforest next, and then Connor decided on Mount Kilimanjaro.  Fujiyama followed.  After that Connor said he was tired of walking.

On the final leg of their sail around the world, Connor suggested they try the Sahara desert.  Duncan leaned his back against the Tamarind's cabin wall.  "I'd rather die of cold than dehydration.  How about the North Pole?"

Connor grinned, his teeth very white in his sun-darkened and wind-roughened face, and he hung onto the rail with one hand.  "We did that already."

"Oh, yeah," Duncan agreed.  "I forgot.  Two years ago, wasn't it?"

"Three," Connor corrected.

"Ok.  How about the South Pole?  Penguins instead of polar bears."

Now Connor laughed.  "I never knew you could run so fast."

Duncan grinned in return.  "But I still had a hard time catching up with you."  He propped his feet on a coil of rope and squinted up at the blazing sun high overhead.  "Cassandra walked across a desert, you know, to get away from the Horsemen.  But that was probably the Arabian desert, not the Sahara."

Connor nodded and stared out to sea, the breeze ruffling the sun-bleached strands of his hair.

"You've been thinking about her, haven't you?" Duncan observed, for he knew his kinsman well.  The silences had grown deeper again, but now the unfocused stares were those of a man looking more to the future than to the past.  Cassandra had been thinking about them; care packages had awaited them in nearly every port--boxes filled with books and magazine clips, Highland whisky and food delicacies, puzzles and games, pictures of their grown children and growing grandchildren, and crayoned drawings and finger-paintings galore.

Connor shrugged.  "Sailors always think about women."  He turned and observed wickedly, "Most of us anyway.  You've been thinking about Methos."

Duncan didn't bother to deny it, but he did add, "And Amanda.  And Claudia, and Robert and Gina, and other friends.  My granddaughter will be fourteen in September; I'd like to see her again."

"And Sara's new baby is five weeks old.  I'd like to see him, too."  Connor looked out to sea.  "And Rachel."

Duncan counted back the years and realized with a jolt that Rachel was going to be ninety-four in two months' time.  Connor needed to go to her, and soon.  Duncan stretched as he stood then joined Connor at the rail.  "We've been away long enough, Connor.  I'm ready to go back."

Connor nodded slowly then quoted: "And so we'll go no more a roving / So late into the night."

Duncan knew that poem, both by heart and by a head.  The immortal words of Byron lived on.  Connor was waiting expectantly, for quoting poetry back and forth was a game he and Duncan often played.  Duncan finished the stanza: "Though the heart be still as loving / And the moon be still as bright."  Connor didn't come back with the next line, and Duncan gladly gave up the game.

But that night, as Duncan lay in his bunk and stared at the thin ribbons of moonlight streaming across his hands, the words came to him unbidden, unwanted and reborn.

/ For the sword outwears its sheath,
/ And the soul wears out the breast.


Duncan turned his back on the moonlight and curled on his side, the pillow cool beneath his head.  Through the porthole, he could see Connor at the rail, keeping watch.  Duncan whispered the final couplet of that verse to himself, above the wash of the waves.

"And the heart must pause to breathe / And Love itself have rest."

It was time to stop running.  It was time to live.  Duncan rolled over and slept soundly, rocked by the waves.


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Sara and Daniel's apartment, Prague
Friday, 17 July 2034
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It was Daniel who first spotted the notice of their deaths.  "Sara!" he called, and at the note of fear and distress in his voice, she dropped her book on the couch and left Alea playing on the floor and Will asleep in the bassinet to join Daniel in their bedroom, where he sat in front of a display screen, a news item highlighted in blue.

Boat Found Adrift; Piracy Feared
The Southeast Asian Times
Kulang, 15 July:
  The 17m ketch Tamarind was found abandoned and adrift in the Timor Sea on Wednesday, say Indonesian port authorities.  The boat, of Bahamian registry, was owned by Connor MacLeod of Scotland, who was reported to have been sailing around the world with a friend, Mark Johnson of New Zealand.  No bodies were discovered, but bloodstains on deck and in the cabin lead officials to suspect foul play.  The life boat was not deployed, and the last log entry was made on 3 July—


"No," Sara said, the letters on the screen blurring into a smear of white and blue.  "That's impossible."

"Sara, I'm so sorry," Daniel said, standing to gather her into his arms.

"No," she said again, standing stiff against him.  "You don't understand.  They can't be dead."

"Sara, love … It's been almost two weeks.  With no boat? The sharks—"

"No," she said flatly and pulled away.  "I'm calling Colin."

But Colin hadn't heard anything.  Neither had Rachel or John.  Sara had to break the news to each of them.  Sara called Cassandra next.  "Are they dead?" she demanded.

"What?" Cassandra replied, sounding sleepy and confused.  "Who?"

"The Tamarind was abandoned and set adrift two weeks ago," Sara explained for the fourth time.  "Daniel just saw the report on the web.  Haven't you read it yet?"  She knew Cassandra's newscanner was set to flag any mention of Connor MacLeod, as was theirs.

"No, not today.  I just got back from the Hague.  I'm sorry, Sara, I don't--"

"Are they dead?" Sara repeated, her frustration and panic growing.

Cassandra said nothing for several seconds, while Sara felt each beat of her heart inside her chest.  "It's possible," Cassandra said finally.  "Otherwise, they would have contacted—"

"I know," Sara interrupted.  Only they hadn't, not for two weeks, not anyone.  Which meant …

"I don't think they're dead," Cassandra said calmly.  "I don't sense it.  I haven't dreamed it.  Have you?"

Sara bit into her lower lip.  "No."

"Good.  So we wait," she concluded briskly.  "And Sara …"

"What?"

"This needed to happen, you know."

She knew.  She'd known it for years.  Every generation or so, Immortals needed to disappear, to cut all ties, so they could take a new name and start a new life.  But it didn't have to happen like this.

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Five days later, Cassandra called her Sara to her office.  "They're alive," Cassandra said, and Sara sagged back against the door, once again aware of the beating of her heart.  "They're in Darwin, Australia."

"Why'd he call you?"

"He didn't want Daniel to have any chance of intercepting the message."

"Daniel," Sara murmured.  He'd been so sweet, so supportive, so certain they were dead, while Sara had been refusing to cry.  "He's been trying to convince me to have a memorial service."

Cassandra nodded.  "That's still not a bad idea."

"But, I can't—  Now that I know …"  Sara smacked the heavy wooden door with her fist in frustration.  "I'm not that good a liar."

Cassandra just nodded again.  "If Daniel thinks you've accepted the deaths as real, he'll probably let the service go.  He only suggested it for your sake."

"I know."  Daniel was just trying to help, to help her come to terms with her father's disappearance.  And although Connor MacLeod wasn't dead, her father was certainly gone.

She didn't really understand that, though, not deep down, not until four days later when her house computer chimed to tell her someone was at the door.  The monitor showed a young man with hair long enough to curl, bleached blond by the sun, and a darker, short-trimmed beard.  His skin was tanned to a deep brown.  A college student, perhaps, judging from the knapsack in one hand and the brightly colored clothes, plus the earring in his left ear and the two gold chains around his neck.  "Yes?" she said into the speaker.

"Sara," he said, and then she knew.

"Sweet goddess above," she breathed and ran to the living room to yank open her door.  "Come in!" she said.  "Oh, come in," and then she was in his arms, safe and at home.  He didn't smell of horses now, and his aftershave wasn't lemony, but this was the man she had loved her entire life, and she would know him anywhere.
Then she hit him in the shoulder, hard, and then she thumped him again.  "Where were you?" she demanded.  "What took you so long?"

"I'm sorry."  The apology was quick but sincere.  "Our lifeboat was blown off course."

She shook her head, confused.  "The lifeboat was still on the Tamarind."

He dropped his knapsack on the living room floor.  "We had two."

"Oh.  The blood?"

He winced, rubbing his left shoulder.  "Duncan got me a good one."  He grinned suddenly, the earring and the tan giving him a pirate's wolfish glee.  "And then I got him."

She almost grinned back, but then remembered what he had done.  "Why didn't you warn us?" she asked, and was embarrassed when it came out more of a whine than a plea.

All traces of his grin disappeared.  "I did, Sara.  Years ago."

He had, yes, but—

"You got married, Sara.  Colin did, too.  You can't have Daniel and Oona asking about me, year after year, and wondering why I never visit anymore, or why they can't see me."

John's wife wouldn't ask; John had told Gina about Immortals years ago. Sara still remembered how upset—furious, really--their dad had been.  And that, of course, was why she and Colin had kept quiet.

"This will be easier, in the long run," he continued.

Ok, maybe … but it hadn't been easy up to now.  But who ever said life was going to be easy?  Or fair?  Sara took a deep breath and welcomed him again.  "Come on in," she said, leading the way to the kitchen.  "Would you like some tea?"

"Sure, but first I'd like to see my grandson."

Sara took him into the bedroom, where Will lay sleeping on his back on the futon.  He'd outgrown the bassinet only a few days ago.

"So this is the miracle baby," he said, bending down to peer at the tiny form.

"Yes, he is," Sara agreed, marveling again at the perfection of her son.  Both of Will's fists were up, raised in a victorious boxer's stance, and just barely reaching to his ears.  Straight black hair spiked in all directions from his head.  "He's worth it all."

"Is the treatment that bad?"

Sara grimaced, remembering.  "Oh, I was so sick.  The treatment suppresses the immune system, so it won't attack the baby, but then it doesn't attack other things, either.  That went on for months, until I finally got pregnant, and then I was in the isolation ward for nine months, and I missed Alea and Daniel so much, and I still got sick, even in there, and …"

He'd left the baby and come to stand by her side.  "How are you now?"

"Fine."  Except for being tired all the time, but all new mothers were, and that cough that came and went wasn't much of a bother.  And there'd been that fever a few weeks ago, but that happened sometimes.  "I'm fine."

"And Daniel?"

"Fine."  Her gaze went back to her son.  "He's really happy we have Will."  Though Daniel hadn't always been happy along the way.  As the years of the treatment wore on, his early support had turned into doubt, then worry, then frustration and fear.  He hadn't liked using Sara's money to pay for the procedures, either.  But Sara had persevered, in spite of his misgivings, in spite of her illnesses, and now they had a beautiful baby boy.  "Alea loves him, too.  She's a wonderful big sister."

"And you're a wonderful mother," he said.  "I'm proud of you, Sara."

A day ago, an hour ago, she would have straightened up and beamed at him for saying those words, and she would have answered, "Thanks, Dad."  But now she just said, "Thanks," with a smile.  "Tea?"

They went back to the kitchen, where he sat at the table, watching, while Sara pulled out two mugs from the corner cabinet.  "Daniel just took Alea to school," she said, measuring the water from their weekly drinking ration.

"I know."

"You know?" she repeated, turning around to look at him.  But of course he knew.  He'd been outside, watching, waiting until Daniel and Alea left, waiting for Sara to be alone.  She set the kettle on the stove and turned the gas on high.

"I'll be in town for about a week," he said, offering her a few days, a scrap of his time, when he'd been traveling with Duncan for four years.  "I'll come over when Daniel goes to work, or we can meet at my hotel or in a park."

Like a secret lover.  Like a dirty little affair.  Sara saw the future clearly enough now; she didn't need to see it in her dreams.  Her father would never come to a family birthday party, never visit for Christmas or a weekend, never call her at home, never send pictures, never again be a regular, normal part of her life.  Her father was gone.  She understood that now.

"Daniel might recognize me; I shouldn't see him," he went on.  "But I can see Alea.  And Will."

Sara nodded, setting sugar and milk on the table.  "What should they call you?"  Obviously not Grandpa.  Alea and Will would never have a grandfather.
"How about Cousin Mike?"

She nodded again as she reached for the spoons.  "Is that your name now?"

"Michael Connor Audren."

Sara kept nodding as she sat down, staring at the stranger who had her father's eyes.

"Sara," he said, reaching across the table for her hand.  "You've always known that immortality requires keeping secrets."

And keeping secrets required telling lies.  Sara had always known that, too.  "It's ok, 'Mike'."  She smiled again, another lie.  "It'll be fine."

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When Methos read of the demise of Mark Johnson, he smiled and drank a toast to Duncan MacLeod. It was time to find his old friend.

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METHUSELAH'S GIFT


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Duncan MacLeod's Apartment, Australia
September 2034

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Methos found MacLeod in the Land Down Under, living in an apartment near the beach.  "Drowning once wasn't enough for you?" Methos asked.  The nearby waves lay lulled and gleaming in the sunshine, but dark in their depths.  Not many cared to gamble with the weather, not these days.

MacLeod just laughed and opened wide the door.  "Methos."  His smile was golden, his eyes darkly alive, his beauty the best of dark and bright.  He bowed and swept out his hand in invitation.  "Come in.  Mi casa es su casa."

Methos grinned and came on in.  "In that case, where's the beer?"

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"You're going where?" Methos asked that night over dinner, a shrimp and pasta dish with cream sauce and dill. Methos was on his second helping; MacLeod hadn't lost his touch with food.

"New Zealand.  It's Krista's birthday on Saturday, and she has the lead role in a school ballet on Friday night. I bought my ticket back in May.  I'd like to see my granddaughter again.  And Paula and Tom."

"MacLeod—" Methos stopped in exasperation.  "That is your name now, right?"  It wasn't a question; it was a reminder.  "Mark Johnson is dead, MacLeod. You killed him, as well you should have.  Now let him rest in peace.  And let his family be at peace, too."

"They won't see me," he said, stubborn as always.  "I'll stay in the background."

"Spying."

"Watching," he corrected.

"The way you watched your parents, after you were banished from Glenfinnan?  Longing for the life you could no longer have?"

"I know better now," MacLeod retorted, his jaw tight.  "I've done it often enough."

"You've walked away from lives, yes.  Walked away from jobs, homes, friends, yes. But you've never walked away from your family before, not while they were still alive, not since that first time."  He leaned forward to plead, as he had pleaded with this man before, "Let it go, MacLeod."  Let the past go, so that other things might come to be.

MacLeod stood and started gathering the dishes.  "It's just this once, Methos.  One last time.  It'll be all right. Even if they do see me, they won't recognize me." 
He went into the kitchen then, so he didn't see Methos's slow nod, and he didn't hear him say, "That makes it even worse."

~~~~~

After Duncan returned from New Zealand, he was mostly silent for the first two days. That evening, as they sat on the beach and watched the silver flashes of the waves, he said, "Doesn't it get tiresome?  Being right?"

Methos's smile didn't hide his sigh.  "Being right isn't the problem. It's being ignored."

"Yeah," Duncan agreed softly, remembering certain episodes with Richie and with Amanda and even a few with Methos himself, and with other people through the years.  "To Mark Johnson," Duncan said as he lifted his whisky glass.  "May he rest in peace."

"I'll drink to that," Methos said, and they did.  "To Duncan MacLeod," Methos proposed next.  "May he live in peace."

Duncan couldn't drink to himself, but he could easily agree with the second half of the toast.  "To peace," Duncan said, and they drank again.  He looked at Methos, eyes dark in the still moonless night.  "And to good friends."

"To good friends." Methos drained his glass and poured them each another shot.  They leaned back on their elbows, watching the stars above the sea and listening to the waves.

"Where were you?" Duncan asked, just a simple question, not an accusation or a demand. He could ask it that way now.  "After—"

"—after Susan died," Methos finished for him.  "You needed to grieve, MacLeod. You needed to rage and to weep and to curse the very earth and sky."

He'd done exactly that.  "So you left me alone to say goodbye."

Methos smiled again, wry and wise.  "I didn't want you cursing me."

"I did anyway."  He'd cursed every Immortal he knew, including himself.

"Yeah, but I wasn't around to hear it and curse you back."  He grinned this time.  "That's Connor's job.  And I'm sure he did it well."

Duncan had to grin, too.  "That he did."

"Where's your kinsman now?" Methos asked.

Duncan tossed back his whisky, tasting a whiff of smoke over dark honey as heat spread deep within. "Living with Rachel, until he has to say goodbye."  He breathed in slowly, to better savor the warmth that lingered after the bitterness was gone.


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BLESS THE CHILD

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Phinyx Castle, Swiss Alps 
September 2041

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"When did you first feel like a grown-up, Mom?" Alea asked as she and Sara were strapping on their protective gear in the stone-walled anteroom of the karate dojo at the Phinyx Mother House.

"At my Uncle Duncan's wedding," Sara immediately replied, while she sat on the wooden bench and carefully adjusted the shin guard over the tender spot just beneath her left kneecap.  After the last (and probably final) adolescent growth spurt, Alea was as tall as her mother.  Sara had forgotten Alea's increased reach during Sensei Roxanne's class last week.

"But you were only ten," Alea, an ever-so-ancient sixteen, objected, and she pulled her long black curls into an unruly ponytail. 

"Nine," Sara corrected, but on that day of autumn springtime in New Zealand, the bridge from her childhood to her adulthood had been built and crossed.  Oh, she had gone back to her childhood almost immediately, and then straddled that gap for a few years, but soon enough childhood became a land of the mists for her, glimpsed most clearly in dreams and memories, best brought back in the echoes of her own children's laughter.
 
She'd grown up fast, once she'd found out the people she loved were Immortals.

"What happened at your Uncle Duncan's wedding, Mom?" Alea asked as they finished dressing and tied their belts over their gi.  "To make you feel grown-up?"

Sara waved her hand vaguely in the air, unwilling to lie, unable to tell the truth.  Alea didn't know about Immortals, not yet.  She would never call her grandfather "Grandpa," and she knew Duncan only as a friend, not as Sara's uncle.  "Oh, seeing all the families together, from the very young to the very old," Sara told Alea, and it wasn't really a lie, not all the way.  "It made me realize that my parents had been young once: been babies, children, teenagers, that they'd been lovers when they were married, that they'd had a life all their own.  And then it hit me:  One day, they'd be gone."
 
"I'd wish I'd known them," Alea said quietly.  "Your mom and dad."
 
"I wish that, too," Sara said.  She'd wished that every day for the past sixteen years.  "You look just like your grandmother, you know," Sara said to her daughter, and it was more true with every year.  The same high cheekbones, the same beauty and grace.  The eyes were lighter, though, startlingly blue against dusky skin, like a husky with white-blue eyes.  Sara smiled as she reached out a tender hand to smooth back an errant curl.  "Except for the hair and the skin."
 
"Oh, I know.  I get that--," and Alea tossed her head and tightened her ponytail again, "--from my dad."
 
"You certainly do," Sara said, remembering the first time she'd seen Daniel, his eyes alight and his black hair streaming behind him as he'd leapt and plucked a baseball from the air, and then thrown the runner out at second base.  Did he play baseball anymore?  Did he and Will still go to the games?
 
"Uncle Colin says Grandma's hair was pure gold," Alea said, and it had been, before the silver strands crept in, before the dyes had faded it to ash blonde, before Mom had finally let it go completely and gloriously white.  Alea added complacently, "Then he said mine was shimmering black silk, like ocean waves under moonlight."
 
Sara smiled at that.  "He always was a poet at heart."  And a romantic, but that wasn't surprising.  She'd been one, too, before Daniel had left.
 
"Ready?" Alea asked, and she grinned as she picked up her bo, the long wooden staff still sheathed in black cloth.
 
"I don't know," Sara said warily, even as she smiled and reached for her own weapon.  "You seem a little too eager to me."
 
"I learned some new moves this weekend."
 
"Uh-oh," Sara said, as she and Alea walked to the arched doorway and bowed before entering the dojo, the old monastery's scriptorium now put to different use. Dust-filled beams of autumn sunlight crossed from the row of lancet windows high overhead to the swords and sai hanging on the long, side wall.  Their bright metal gleamed against the white stone blocks.  Sara and Alea bowed before the portraits of the founders on the front wall, then took the covers off their bo and laid the cloth strips on the bench near the door.  In the center of the room they faced each other and bowed once more.
 
"Ms. Garrison and I have been taking special lessons with Sensei Mike," Alea explained, assuming the ready position, her bo held confidently in her young hands.
 
Sara stifled a groan.  Sensei Mike (listed as Michael Connor Wells on his most recent "birth" certificate and known as Connor MacLeod to a select few, just as Ms. Laina Garrison was known as Cassandra) had offered to teach Sara those new moves when he'd first arrived in Austria two months ago, but she hadn't had time, busy as she was with the Phinyx Finance Council, finding and buying a Chapter House for the South America school, the opening of ten new shelters in the U.S. for the dispossessed and starving thousands there, preparing for her initiation ceremony into the Inner Circle.  She hadn't made time, either.  She didn't need another sensei.
 
Connor had obviously made the time to find other students, two students who just happened to be Sara's daughter and Sara's long-time friend.  What a coincidence.  And what was he up to?
 
"We should stretch first, to warm up," Sara reminded her too-eager teenager, which was of course true, but Sara also wanted to postpone the punishment Alea was about to deal out.  What Connor wanted to deal out (and Sara thought of him as Connor now, not Dad, not for years), well, Sara would take care of that--and of him--in her own way, and in her own time. 
 
"Oh, right," Alea agreed, and as they started the arm circles she said, "I'm glad you could come, Mom.  I know things have been busy since the last food riots, and all the travel you have to do, and with--"
 
"I'm glad you asked," Sara cut in, but she should have said, "I'm glad you kept asking," because Alea had been asking for a sparring session with "just the two of us" for weeks.  "Let's do this every Thursday," Sara suggested, in a sudden desperate urge to keep at least one of her children close.
 
"Sure!" Alea said, with a happy smile, and Sara smiled in return.  Yes, she should have done this weeks ago.
 
When they were done with all the stretching, Alea suggested, "A kata?  Bo sho-dan?"  Sara nodded and moved to stand by Alea's side.  "Yoi," Alea intoned,  and they slid into the sequence of moves--step and slide, turn and strike, bare feet squeaking occasionally on the scuffed wooden floor, each bo tracing a deadly figure-eight in the air as it shifted from hand to hand, and then striking out again, at the head, at the groin, at the knee.  Then step and slide again, turn the other way, with the bo twirling in the air, and on to the next set of moves.
 
Sara and Alea ended up side by side, precisely where they had started, the bo held vertically in their right hands.  "Good one," Alea said after they had grounded their staffs.  "At least I didn't get turned around that time."
 
"The bo kata are hard to keep straight for me, too," Sara said, and she tightened the knot on her belt.
 
"Sensei Mike seems to know *all* the kata," Alea commented, fixing her ponytail yet again.  "In lots of different styles, too.  Of course, he practices all the time."
 
"Yes, he does," Sara agreed, keeping her tone casual, because Alea didn't know about the endless fighting among Immortals, about the beheadings and the Quickenings and the Game, not yet, hopefully never. Sara and Colin had found out about beheading at Uncle Duncan's wedding, back when they were nine years old. Swords weren't fun after that.

"I'm going to stretch some more, Alea," Sara told her daughter, and Sara set down her bo and began to stretch, first one side, then the other.
 
Alea started stretching, too, but she didn't stop talking, which wasn't a surprise.  "Of course, when Sensei Mike and Ms .Garrison finally get together, I bet he won't spend his free time in the dojo."  A grin spread across her face.  "He'll be in bed with her."
 
Sara straightened immediately.  "Alea!"
 
"What?" she protested, one arm curved over her head as she bent to the right.  "You can't miss the way they look at each other.  I think they'd be a sweet couple, and so does everybody else in my class."  She straightened and bent the other way.  "Well, except for Lise, but that's only because she was hoping Sensei Mike would like her.  Most of us did--I know I did," she added, completely unaware that she was speaking of her own grandfather.
 
"Alea!" Sara said again.
 
"What?" Alea protested again.  "I've liked Cousin Mike for years, ever since I was nine years old and met him at Great Aunt Rachel's house in England.  He was so nice to her, and he would always buy me and Will scones after he took us to the park.  And he was great to pillow-fight with."
 
"Yes, he was," Sara said, remembering both Alea's childhood and her own.
 
"I miss Great Aunt Rachel," Alea added suddenly.
 
"So do I," Sara agreed, this time remembering late night talks and card games and spicy stories of days long ago.  "But she was one hundred years old, Alea.  She had a good life."
 
"Yeah, that is old," Alea said and continued in blithe self-absorption, "Anyway, when he moved here, he said I was old enough now to call him just plain Mike--when we weren't in the dojo, that is, because he likes things to be formal in class--but when I asked him to go dancing, he said he was way too old for me."
 
"He is," Sara broke in immediately, wishing she'd been there to have seen Connor's face and wanting to smack him for not telling her right away.
 
Alea shrugged.  "Maybe.  But Lise is twenty, and she's been all over him for weeks, even though Mike never says more than 'Hi' to her.  But he's got more than 'Hi' for Ms. Garrison, and she's got a lot more than that for him.  We're taking bets on how long it will be until they finally go to bed."
 
They already had, in 1592.  Sara didn't say anything as she watched Alea bend to touch her toes, going all the way down until her palms were flat on the floor.  Her hair flipped forward and lay in a pool of black silk ribbons over her hands.  Sara's own hair was just barely to her shoulders now, the brown laced through with white and gray, not dyed, never once dyed.  Sara gave a quick puff of air upward to get her bangs away from her eyes.  She needed a haircut again; perhaps on Tuesday she would have time to walk into town.
 
"I'm betting on three weeks," Alea announced, as she stood and tossed her ponytail over her shoulder.  "Ms. Garrison hasn't had a lover in ages, has she?  Nobody at the school could remember seeing her with anybody, ever."
 
"No," Sara agreed.  "Not in ages."  Not for nearly four hundred fifty years. At least, not a man.
 
"So, why not?" Alea asked, and why not, indeed.  "She seems happier with him around."
 
And Cassandra was happy; Sara knew that.  Everybody knew that.  Cassandra had always been vivacious and energetic, busy and focused on the work--but before she had shone with a steady purpose.  Now she glowed, and her quiet smiles had become laughter.  Connor made her happy, and she made him happy, too, happier than he'd been since Mom had died, over fifteen years ago.  It wasn't as obvious with him, but Sara could tell.  Two weeks was a more likely bet.  Or perhaps one.  They'd waited centuries.
 
Sara didn't begrudge them that.  She loved them both, and she knew they suited each other in ways no one else could.  Mom had known that, too.  "It's going to happen, Sara," Mom had told her on the day after Connor's 500th birthday, after the party that Cassandra had not been invited to.  "They're both immortal," Mom had gone on, her eyes bright blue in contrast to the pure white of her hair, "and they know each other so well ... they love each other.  Someday, you and I--and Rachel and Colin and John-- won't be here, and your dad doesn't do well when he's alone.  Cassandra will take care of him when we can't."
 
"But, Mom," Sara had begun in confusion, "doesn't that bother you?  I mean, you haven't even spoken to Cassandra in years."
 
"I know," Mom had admitted, looking away.  "I ... I was blaming her, for my getting old.  But it's not her fault I'm mortal, and she's immortal, and it's not your dad's fault, either.  It's just ... what they are.  What we are."
 
Sara knew that, better now at forty-five than she had at twenty-two, or at Uncle Duncan's wedding at the age of nine, but it still wasn't fair, not to any of them.
 
Mom had gone on, "I wrote to Cassandra last night--my New Year's resolution--to tell her I didn't hate her, not anymore.  I like to think that Heather and Brenda wouldn't hate me for loving Connor, now that they're gone.  They would want Connor to be happy."  Mom had taken a deep breath and said firmly, "And so do I.  Love shouldn't be selfish, Sara.  Sometimes it has to let go."
 
Sara knew that.  She believed it.  She'd learned it with Daniel last year--not that he'd given her much choice--and recently both her children had been teaching her to let go again.  But love didn't have to disappear, and it should never just walk away.
 
Sara picked up her bo and turned to her daughter.  "I'm ready. "
 
Three minutes later, she realized she wasn’t. "Damn it," Sara swore as Alea got inside her guard yet again and caught her on the elbow.  Sara shook her arm, trying to get her fingers to stop tingling.  "Do that again, only not so hard and not so fast."
 
Alea showed her the maneuver, slowly, and then Sara tried it out on her, over and over, faster each time.  "Good!" Alea said finally.  "Now here's a counter for it."
 
Sara had just finished mastering the countermove when a familiar rasping voice sounded from the doorway: "Ready to try that with me?"
 
"Sensei Mike!" Alea exclaimed in delight, and Sara let out an irritated sigh before she turned.  Connor was bowing at the doorway, his black belt stark against the immaculate whiteness of his gi, his wrapped bo in his hand.  His shoulder-length hair was bound  in a neat braid at the nape of his neck.  Cassandra liked long hair.
 
He bowed to the portraits, then walked over to them.  Alea and Sara bowed first, the courtesy required from lower belts to higher belts, and Connor definitely outranked them both, if only in the dojo. Connor bowed in return, just as politely, then waited for Sara to respond to his suggestion. Alea was waiting, too.  "Sure," Sara said, blowing her bangs up out of her eyes, because she wasn't about to back down, not from him, not in front of Alea.  "That way Sensei Mike can see how good a teacher you are, Alea."
 
"And how good a student you are!" Alea put in. "It's not all up to me."
 
Sara didn't answer that.  Connor knew exactly what kind of student she was.  He was already sliding his bo out of its black canvas sheath, and when he faced Sara in the center of the floor, his narrowed gray eyes held even more eagerness than Alea's had earlier today.  "Not going to stretch?" Sara asked, not averse to a delay.
 
"Already did," he answered.  "In the anteroom."
 
Of course he had.  He'd probably told Alea to let him know when Sara was going to be in the dojo.  He might even have been listening to them the entire time.  In fact, he'd probably put Alea up to asking Sara to spar with her, week after week after week.  Sara bowed to him, he bowed to her; then she smiled at him and attacked.
 
Which had been, Sara reflected a few minutes later as she sank to the floor in pain, hugging her throbbing arm to her side, extremely stupid of her.  Not that she needed hindsight to figure that out, or any magical kind of foresight, either.  She knew Connor went to the dojo every day.  She knew Connor had over five hundred years of experience in fighting for his life.  She knew she couldn't hurt him, not permanently, and she'd known when she'd escalated the sparring match by smacking him a good one that she'd been begging for trouble, because Connor never backed down from that kind of challenge, especially not from a student.  No karate teacher would.  He'd blinked once in pain and surprise at her strike, then his eyes had lit up and he had half-smiled, that dangerous smile she knew so well.
 
"Think you're ready, eh?" he'd said, and then proceeded to demonstrate to her exactly how unready and outclassed she really was. And of course, Connor knew *exactly* what her weak spots were.  He'd had enough time to learn.
 
"You could use more practice," Connor observed from a few feet away, his bo still in his hands.  "Some more lessons."
 
But not from him.  He was still her father, but she wasn't a child anymore, and she was not going to be his student.
 
"You two were really going fast!" Alea exclaimed, getting up from where she'd been kneeling on the floor.  "I didn't even see that last move."
 
Neither had Sara.  She got to her feet and picked up her bo from the floor with her left hand, afraid that her right hand might not close all the way.  She bowed to Connor, as was required, holding the position for a maddening two seconds before he bowed back.
 
"You had all the right moves, Mom," Alea reassured her. "Didn't she, Sensei Mike?"
 
"Yes, she did," he acknowledged, sounding pleased, almost proud, but Sara wasn't going to be bought off with that.  She made her way stiffly over to the bench and picked up the cover for her bo.
 
"Are you hurt?" Alea asked, now sounding concerned.
 
"I'll be fine," Sara said, and she knew she would be, in a little while.  Connor hadn't hit her hard enough to cause permanent damage.  He'd known exactly what he was doing.  She debated trying to slide her bo into its narrow cloth sheath and decided against it.  She needed both hands for that.  "Just some bruises."
 
"Oh, well, everybody gets those in training," Alea said in dismissal.  "They only last a week or two, long enough for the lessons to sink in, that's what Sensei Roxanne always says."
 
Sara swung around to look Connor in the eye.  "Then you'd better learn fast, hadn't you, Sensei Mike?" she asked him, and with the sheath draped over her shoulder and her bo in her left hand, Sara bowed her way from the room.
 
She knew his weak spots, too.
 
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Cassandra, dressed in spotless white gi and black belt, was waiting in the changing room when Sara emerged from the showers.  "You spying on me, too?" Sara asked, toweling herself dry.  Her right hand worked now, but a few other spots would be sore for days to come.  Connor's bruises had no doubt healed before Sara had left the dojo.
 
"No," Cassandra answered with studied patience.  "Alea and I had a lesson with Connor at four.  I didn't realize you were joining us today."
 
"Neither did I," Sara answered sourly. 
 
"Neither did Connor."
 
"Oh, please," Sara said in disgust as she dropped the towel on the bench.  "He put Alea up to it weeks ago."
 
"Your father," Cassandra stated evenly, "is not that devious."
 
"No?"
 
"No.  Not with the people he loves."
 
"Because of what you did to him, no doubt."  Sara pulled her tunic over her head and took her time about poking her head through the neck-hole.
 
Cassandra was still waiting for her, still patient, still calm.  "No doubt."
 
Sara finished dressing without a word--underwear (she'd forgotten her bra in her haste to put something on, but what the hell), leggings, belt and dagger (ornamental, but still wickedly sharp), boots, cloak--then ran her fingers through her still-damp hair and headed out the door.  Cassandra followed. In the courtyard, the distant clack of wood striking wood came through the open lancet windows, Connor teaching Alea some more new moves, no doubt.
 
"He loves you, Sara," Cassandra said, as they walked past the picturesque and fully functional stone-encircled well. Four junior students ran by, late for class probably, their dark blue cloaks flapping behind them in the brisk spring air.  They dodged the gray-clad Guardian as she strode directly to the gate. Guardians never merely walked.
 
"He's driving me crazy," Sara responded, not slowing down at all.
 
Cassandra smiled.  "Your mother used to say that a lot."
 
Sara stopped dead, and Cassandra stopped too, her auburn braid of hair swinging slowly, its tip just grazing the back of  her knees. Connor liked long hair.  "My mother," Sara stated, "was his wife.  I am his daughter, and he never lets me forget that."  She started walking again, aiming for the narrow staircase in the west tower.  "I know I'm less than a tenth of his age, but I am not a child."
 
"What do you want from him, Sara?" Cassandra asked, walking with her again.  "He came here because you told him you wanted to see him, yet you never seem to have time for him. You haven't spoken to him in days."
 
"He's here because of you," Sara said dismissively.
 
Cassandra sighed and repeated, "He's here because of you.  You and Alea.  Just as he lived England for six years to be with Rachel. Just as he went traveling with Duncan after Susan died.  Just as he went to the Highlands when Colin was alone.  If you and Alea left, he'd follow."
 
Sara paused with her hand on the stair railing.  "How's it feel to be last on the list?"
 
Cassandra's lips thinned, then curved into a wry smile.  "Familiar."  Sara started up the stairs, but Cassandra caught her by the arm.  "The next time you decide to fight with Connor, Sara, don't try it in the dojo."
 
"Yeah," Sara agreed ruefully, trying not to wince as she eased her bruised arm from Cassandra's grasp.  "Too much pain."
 
"For both of you."
 
Sara snorted in disbelief.  "I can't hurt him."
 
"Oh, yes, you can. And you have." 
 
Sara didn't believe that either. She didn't want to. She shrugged and turned away from Cassandra to walk up the stairs, but Cassandra called her by name, a snap of command, the whip of the Voice, and Sara froze. Literally. One foot was in the air and one hand was clutching the railing, and she could not move.
 
Cassandra's calm voice found her. "And the next time you decide to unleash your anger with Connor and with Daniel--and with yourself--take it for a walk or take it running, but don't take it out on me, Sara.  I won't be so patient again."
 
Cassandra left her then, and it was nearly fifteen seconds before Sara shuddered herself free. Her fingernails were white with the effort of holding the railing, and her legs trembled with fatigue. The rest of her was trembling with rage... and, she had to admit, fear. "Way to go, Sara," she muttered to herself as she finally went upstairs to her room.

By the time she got there, a message was beeping and blinking at her. "Deliver!" she snapped, and the calm voice of the computer informed her she had an appointment with a therapist at twenty-seven minutes. "Frack that," Sara muttered.  

"Not understood," the computer said. "Please rephrase."

Sara made sure to enunciate clearly as she said: "Fuck that."

"Understood."

"Good," Sara replied.

But the damn thing continued: "Rest of message. Original voice." Then Cassandra's voice issued from the speaker. "The appointment is not optional, Sara. Be there."

Sara found herself shuddering again.

~~~~~

Fall 2041:  Sara deals with her anger, and she and Connor reconcile on his birthday: 1 Jan 2042



DOUBLE JEOPARDY


Winter 2042:
 Cass and Connor remember Ramirez, speak of past loves, and decide to become lovers again.
Summer 2042: Duncan meets Serena and then Methos stops by for a visit.



LINE OF FIRE


Duncan visits the Phinyx Foundation and gets a rough reception.
The building is attacked.



MANHUNT


Duncan visits Cassandra and asks for help in finding Methos.



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